Monthly Archives: December 2016

an adventurer in quest of his [sic] treasure – 348/366

Today In the last twenty-four hours I chose to ____________

catiously follow the path of honest and yet least resistance.

“As he mused about these things, he realized that he had to choose between thinking of himself as the poor victim of a thief and as an adventurer in quest of his treasure.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

 

 

the triangle falls apart – 346/366 (catch up)

What are three things i need to do tomorrow?

 

  1.  The neighborhood alliance party (SGA)
  2.  A gala decor committee meeting
  3. and Work

 

“Love is made up of three unconditional properties in equal measure:

1. Acceptance
2. Understanding
3. Appreciation

Remove any one of the three and the triangle falls apart.

Which, by the way, is something highly inadvisable. Think about it — do you really want to live in a world of only two dimensions?

So, for the love of a triangle, please keep love whole.”
~ Vera Nazarian, The Perpetual Calendar of Inspiration

the integrity of your own mind – 342/366

How am I expanding my mind?

“The Awakening” by Hy Mayer in Puck Feb. 20, 1915

According to this Wiki-How page I should embark on at least the following:

  1. Train my mind. …
  2. Read books. …
  3. Write. …
  4. Ask questions. …
  5. Start Experiments. …
  6. Exercise my mind. …
  7. Be adventurous. …
  8. Start thinking.
  9. Meditate
  10. Be disciplined
  11. Help others
  12. Test myself under pressure
  13. Get rid of bad feeling and memories
  14. Exercise

I want to assume that I do not have to embark on a course that includes every single one of these!  However, I do have one objection to the list – getting rid of bad feelings and memories. Those are majorly transformative experiences and to leave them behind seems ridiculous to me. Now, I am not saying we have to dwell in them, but finding the positive in them is something I think is unbelievably vital to being human. I guess I would rephrase number 13 to read  “Turn bad feeling and memories into positives”.

Does that make me a Pollyanna? Gawd, I hope not!

Here are some thoughts on each one of the above;

  1. Train my mind – I suppose I do this, but it seems silly to me.
  2. Read books – or listen!
  3. Write – like this 366 posts crap I am doing is an example
  4. Ask questions – NON-Effin-Stop questions
  5. Start experiments  – yes, this too – often they are not in controlled environments and purely anecdotal!
  6. Exercise my mind – I rock the brain burpees (wtf)
  7. Be adventurous – I am pretty sure I do this
  8. Start thinking – does one stop?
  9. Meditate – at least once a day
  10. Be disciplined – Nope, never gonna happen in any traditional way – but in my own way, definitely!
  11. Help others – as much as possible
  12. Test myself under pressure – again, isn’t this living?
  13. Get rid of bad feeling and memories – see spiel above
  14. Exercise – when I feel like it

 

“Nothing is at last sacred but the integrity of your own mind.”
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson, Self-Reliance

As he recognizes, the narratives that we create through our engagement with hard reality are what give meaning to our existence.

the moment after the door closes – 341/366

How much of my day do I spend completely alone?

Alone by Henri de Toulouse-Lautrec
Alone by Henri de Toulouse-Lautrec

No much, actually.  M office is usually left open and I have people walking by all day.  The only times I am really alone in an enclosed space is when I do the commute between dropping my Squink off and getting to my office… but, even then I am not alone as I am having to contend with other drivers and such.

I like being alone though, because the sounds of life hang around for a long while in empty spaces.  That is when I get to quietly enjoy the happy feelings.

“Have you ever heard the wonderful silence just before the dawn? Or the quiet and calm just as a storm ends? Or perhaps you know the silence when you haven’t the answer to a question you’ve been asked, or the hush of a country road at night, or the expectant pause of a room full of people when someone is just about to speak, or, most beautiful of all, the moment after the door closes and you’re alone in the whole house? Each one is different, you know, and all very beautiful if you listen carefully.”
~ Norton Juster, The Phantom Tollbooth

It is difficult to be generous-minded – 339/366 (catch up)

Am I holding a grudge?

The Reconciliation of the Montagues and the Capulets over the Dead Bodies of Romeo and Juliet by Frederic Leighton
The Reconciliation of the Montague’s and the Capulet’s over the Dead Bodies of Romeo and Juliet by Frederic Leighton

Yes, I suppose I am.

I have to say, though, that I am looking for a way to get past things. My concern, however, lies in protecting me as best I can. My mother can be a cruel one when she embarks on one of her judgmental tirades. And considering that the one that is at the heart of this happened at the very crux of my cancer diagnosis, I am in a mode to protect myself to the very best of my abilities.

“It is difficult to be generous-minded to those we have greatly harmed.”
~ P.D. James, The Children of Men