Daily Archives: Sunday, February 7, 2016

who or whom – 32/365

Name a person I wish I didn’t have to deal with today…

It is a Sunday, I don’t see many people outside of family on Sunday so there is not physical person I wish to avoid. I actually want to spend time with them.

However, since it is a Sunday… I suppose one could say that I wish I could avoid God.

I guess it would be better said that I lost Jesus, and wish to avoid him. For so long God and Jesus were so deeply intertwined in my thinking in some ways. I have been a lifelong agnostic theist.  Last Easter, I read some posts  and as I pondered what was intended to be a triumphant message about Christ and I decided  then and there that the tradition of my ancestors was inherently and devilishly flawed and that I could not do it any more.  It is hard to let a tradition like that go, but it flew away. It broke my heart in a way, as well. I tremendously respect religion, as flawed as it is, the flaws rest in human interpretation and manifestations… but at the core of them is something that is more dramatic, it is about community. So, now it was learning how to relate to my community in the absence of Christ as someone I found relate-able.

The spiritual life of the human is something I have always found intriguing; from the days as a 8 year old who was deeply disappointed that the Greek gods did not exist and a move into a Roman Catholic school which edged in to time spent among dutch reformed Christians (again in school, not by choice and a dreadful experience), to my days as a deacon in my ancestral church.

I see God, but he has no name.