Today, during what was originally supposed to be a quick glance through my Facebook feed I read the words “IN WOMEN WITH PERSISTENT CERVICAL CANCER”.
It was in all caps too. PERSISTENT CERVICAL CANCER.
the urge to cry from worry
I stared at my screen thinking; Is this a thing? Can women get cervical cancer… on repeat…
My joints started to ache, my skin flushed with needle pricks, my face got hot, I held my breath.
Is this really a thing?
How did I miss this… I mean, I am a medical school dropout for chrissake… one who has worked or volunteered in breast and cervical cancer issues for most of her adult life…
In my head, in that stunned moment after reading that, I had the idea that some women just kept getting cervical cancer… like one gets a cold… they are both viruses, after all.
So, I (somewhat reluctantly, yet with incredible haste) went to my very trusted medical internet sites to see if there was such a thing (complete with a search for an applicable ICD9 code) as Persistent Cervical Cancer.
the urge to cry from relief
Turns out, it is another way of saying metastatic cervical cancer, and just as I had thought before I had read that post cervical cancer recurrence rates (really, it is 5 year survivor rates) are linked to stage of initial diagnosis.
I wonder if my conversation with a person (a woman who had also had a cancer diagnosis, though of a different variety) just minutes before seeing this, where we talked about how certain things just tend to have an initial thought that you have a recurrence, played into how I reacted (what a sentence this is?!).
Your tooth hurts – it has spread.
You get a bruise – it has spread.
You have an ache – it is a tumor.
but… maybe not.