Find the beautiful
is my theme for this year.
Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not.
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
Finding the beautiful… it is very present in the external.
But as I navigated just how ugly it was to go through this cancer thing, how easy it was for people to forget that it is my battle, and I had to find myself repeatedly trying to forgive… I lost my place. And I was so hurt by people that I am close to (who are ashamed of my diagnosis, who couldn’t/can’t talk to me about what was/is happening, who took things from me with out asking, who made things harder for me….) that I forgot to stop and find the beautiful.
So, fuck the folks who take away from this… they can live with their choices.
And I am so lucky, because I have people in my life who can help me do that. So, I have to let them in and help me see what I need to see.
I, am so excited. Because, you see, this year, 2015, I get to find the beautiful.
is really my theme for this year.